REGRETS

The question I need to answer is, "Do I have any regrets as of today?". Yes, I do in fact have regrets that plague me at times from the past. One huge one, that I have to live with for the rest of my life, was spending less time with my late husband and letting work consume my time for all those years. I was constantly working and he was left alone majority of the time, and he was not able to hold a decent job, so I was the bread maker in our marriage. During those times, he had become depressed and became a severe alcoholic, which nearly destroyed our marriage. But in the end, the alcoholism created a disease to where it took his life at the age of 37. Every day I wish I had taken the moment to spend more time with him, if I had known his life was going to be cut short. :( Now today, three years later, I am trying to spend as much time with my family and closest friends because life is too short. I look at life as a gift now, and I don't intend on wasting it at all. It's nice to be away from a demanding job, and just living a simple life, doing what I dreamed of doing, and what Brian would have wanted me to do, which is go to school to get my degree in Film and to start making movies. I had many things before, a car, a job, security, marriage, money, but I lost it all within a year. I went rock bottom but I have climbed back up and now I am back on my feet again and heading life with full force. I don't want to regret not trying. I want to travel the world, I want to see exciting new places, photograph them, and meet new people from all over the world. There is such a short time, especially now during this chaotic time. You just never know what's going to happen next. I always loved Leonardo DiCaprio's quote in Titanic - "I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count - Jack Dawson." That's what I intend to do now and for the rest of my life. :)